I guess for my first blog post I would like to talk about some of the things that go on in my head. Where do I fit in the Jewish world. Some of my political views and social views among other things seems to place me ideally in the Reform Movement. Yet for some reason I have been constantly wondering if I should explore being more observant? I don't know if this is a normal convert activity or not. I sometime think I want to be more than a "movement" ...I am a JEW full stop. There is so much to the Jewish world that I can read, study, experience...why limit myself to one strain of things.
I have been having this intense curiosity about Chabad lately. I don't know what has prompted this. So far there has been quite a few things that have sparked my interest. I don't know if I should explore this curiosity or not. I don't want to have a superficial experience of Judaism...but is that something that I can prevent regardless of movement? I know there are things that are a challenge in the Orthodox world for me...but sometimes I wonder if there is more I can do as a Jew than I am currently? What if I want to wear tallit katan and a kippot? What about keeping kosher and praying three times a day. What if I want to wear Tefilin? Would I be an oddball in Reform? At the same time..will I be accepted in Chabad either? Is doing both an option? I don't know...not even sure where my path is taking me. I want to experience life as a Jew to its fullness. I am sure I can do that in any movment or flavor of Judaism. I just don't see other Reform jews being frum for example. Maybe this is just a phase...I really couldn't say.
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